Who I Am.......

This is a post that has been on my heart for some time now....
Who I Am....
I have told lies ~ I am a liar.
I have harbored anger against my brother in my heart~ I am a murderer.

The list goes on and on...
A friend has very recently called me a hypocrite.
She is correct. I am a hypocrite. I profess the truth of God with my mouth , yet so often my words and actions are contrary to His perfect will. That does not change the fact that He is holy and His truth is absolute.

I sometimes receive comments from friends and those visiting my blog that although they make my heart smile I am oh, so unworthy of. I love my Lord, Jesus Christ. I have a heart for the lost. For those who have not received the gift of salvation that Jesus gives to us all freely. But we must receive it to be saved from eternal damnation. Each time I speak of Who God is.... of What He is.... I am concerned that those hearing or reading my words will think more of me that what I am. Or that they will look at me and my sinful self and judge God by my words or actions. The bottom line is that I am a wretched, sinful dirt bag that is unworthy of any praise. The Good News is that though my sins are as scarlet, He washes me white as snow. I am forgiven. Any good that you see in me is Jesus living in me. He alone is worthy of our praise. He alone is Holy and righteous. He alone is perfect. It is Him that I am praising not myself. I am not any better than any other human being that has ever walked this earth. My righteousness is like filthy rags before God. So, when I speak of my God, of His truth..... please know that it has nothing to do with me..... of who and what I am.... No, I am not worthy but He is! His truth is absolute and He is never changing. Though I am not faithful, He is and oh, how He loves you.
So, if you look at me and see something good know that it is God in me.... shining through all the muck and the mire... through all the sin. If you look at me and see a hypocrite, a liar, a person contrary to who God is...... if you feel the need to flog me .... so be it.... but please don't try to flog my Lord and Savior again because of me. He has already been mocked, beaten, whipped, scourged, flogged, spit upon and crucified for my sins..... He has already paid the price for who and what I am.....
To the world who looks upon Christians and Judges God according to their words and actions.... I say to you that it is far too convenient to do so in order to justify your lives.... Quite frankly it is a cop out to judge God upon the actions of a created human being. You are falling into a snare that satan has strategically laid out for you to fall in. There is no true self justification. We are all sinners. It is only by receiving the saving grace of Jesus Christ, only by receiving His gift of salvation, by confessing and repenting of our sins and asking Jesus into our hearts to be our Lord and Savior that we are forgiven. That we receive eternal life through Him. We cannot do it in and of ourselves.... Jesus is the ONLY WAY! Any other road leads straight to an eternity in Hell.
I beseech you, do not look at me or anyone else to come to your conclusion of Who God is and what His truths are..... Go to Him! Search His truth in the Bible.... seek Him...... He loves you and is waiting for you with open arms....
Lastly I ask forgiveness from my God and from each of you that I have let down because of my shortcomings.... because of my sin. I am so sorry for any hurt I have caused you.... and even more so I grieve knowing that instead of shining a light in the darkness, instead of perhaps helping you to know the Lord a little better I have been a stumbling block for you...... I am oh, so sorry..... Please forgive me. I will pray that God undoes the harm that I have done... Please don't let me be a factor that keeps you from knowing Him...

In answer to the question ~ WHO Am I? I am a sinner who falls short of the glory of God each and every day.... I am a Christian who by the grace of God am forgiven.... I am someone who cries out to my God asking him to help those who are lost to come to know Him.... to draw them close to Him like a moth to a flame to find His truth and receive His Son so that they too may be forgiven and we can all one day stand before the throne of God All Mighty together and praise Him for all eternity...