In my arms........

A few minutes before 10 yesterday morning there was a knock on my hotel room door.... I opened it and there she was.... my Isabella Faith... my little Pearl.... she turnd to the side and hid her sweet little face behind my guide  Aarons leg.  He brought her in and I was breathless... my heart lept for joy and broke at the same time.. this precious, tiny little girl was so sad and scared.  Aaron was only here long enough for me to sign a couple papers and he was gone..... My little Pearl went into a panic... crying and screaming.  Here whole world was turned upside down.  She would not let me take her coat, hat, or shoes off.  It is very warm in the room but I was not going to force her.  I held her as she screamed..... finally crying herself to sleep in my arms.....  I held my little pearl in my arms for a couple hours while she slept.... I was able to remove her hat, coat and shoes but she was still bundled up.  I was typing with one finger on Facebook, sharing with her Daddy and our friends all about her... my joy was just too big not to be shared!
It is very hard for me to post on blogger... takes forever and I keep getting diconnected and loose everything.  Will post as I can with just a few pics because as much as I want to share and record the memories it is so hard to take myself awayfrom my baby girl while i am on the computer.
When she woke up she was very tentative.. she held on to her hat and coat and kept everything very close to her!  It broke my heart.... she did love her stacky cups and Mrs Potato Head was a huge hit!
The camera scares her and makes her cry so I am posting the 3 pics that I have of my Izzy.  Hopefully soonn the camera won't upset her but for now I will be taking very few pics because I don't want to traumatize her with the camera.
We had to go to 4 places yesterday afternoon to do paperwork and it was quite overwhelming for her... she held on to me and at the police station when they wanted a pic of her by herself, as Aaron took her from my arms she held out her arms to me and cried out, "mama, mama!"  It melted my heart to hear her call me mama but broke it that she was so scared and didn't know what was happening.

She was starting to warm up to me and make eye contact... she loves playing wiht her toys on the bed.

by the time I took the 3rd pic she was in tears and I put the camera away!

she threw up a few times last night... just too much for my little one to handle yesterday.  went through 3 sets of jammies.  She is so tiny and most of what I brought for her is way too big.
She slept well but would not face me.... this morning she woke up slowly..... would wiggle her toes.... suck her thumb.... feel the softness of the sheets with her little hand.
We skyped with Jeremy, Nick and Hannah and she seemed to really like it.....it warmedher up to me and she started making more eye contact and interacting wiht me.
We went to breakfast and as I fed her she started interacting wiht me more.
We had to go to the store to buy more diapers and wet wipes and water... She was very shy and would walk holding my and and wanted me to carry her most of the time... as she walked through the shops and looked at everyone and everything, it is hard to describe .... she was so tiny, vulnerable and looked so sad... it wasnot with the wonder of a little child experiencing something for the first time .... it was more evident that she had spent her entire life in teh orphanage and was feeling very insecure.
when we got back to our room she is a new girl!
Playing with me... smiling, giggling when I give her kisses.  She has such a funny sense of humor.... she is soooooooo smart and inquisitive..  She is bonding with me, she is becoming very attached to her mama and is not the same terrified little girl as yesterday.  thank You Jesus!  now she wants her mamas attention. typing with one finger again. lol
Off to play with my Isabella.